This blog was started as a way to work through the grief of losing my baby March 9, 2011. I found reading stories of other women comforting while I've been going through this and hope that I can help anyone else experiencing the same thing.

Tuesday, September 20, 2011


There are so many abbreviations in this TTC game. See--I just used one! TTC means trying to conceive. Pretty much anything and everything has an abbreviation. Today I went to the bathroom to use an OPK. Hahaha! I got you! Another abbreviation. So anyway OPK means ovulation predictor kit. So I used one and noticed something interesting. I had a bunch of EWCM. EWCM stands for egg white cervical mucus. In a year of TTC with 2 losses and charting I have never noticed this before. This is the first time in a year. How cool is that? EWCM is important because it provides a good environment for the sperm to go from vagina to uterus and get fertilized. The sperm has to climb through the cervix and the EWCM is the means for that to happen. Obviously I was fertile as I've been pregnant twice, but this EWCM is a positive sign of fertility. It means I'll be ovulating soon and J and I are trying for our third pregnancy. It's so depressing when I think of it like that. I've seriously been pregnant twice with nothing to show for it. Nothing at all. Except some depression and a set of tiny footprints. Ugh. So hoping this is our chance. Please let us be pregnant this month and get a BFP (big fat postive). I think we deserve this universe. PLEASE!!!


  1. Yay for the ewcm!! Praying you guys get your bfp for your rainbow baby this cycle! You truly deserve it after all that you've endured over the past year. Keeping my fingers crossed!!

    BTW, you better get to BD'ing during this time(so many abbreviations! lol)

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  3. Good luck, hoping your June 2012 will be filled with happy excitment!