This blog was started as a way to work through the grief of losing my baby March 9, 2011. I found reading stories of other women comforting while I've been going through this and hope that I can help anyone else experiencing the same thing.

Thursday, March 8, 2012

Good News

The appointment yesterday went well. We had an ultrasound at 2:30 and the tech said first she was going to measure the cervix and look at the ovaries. I was kind of irritated, because who makes someone wait to see the baby?? She even knew we had previous losses. So after she looked those things over she said "and here is the baby, see that cardiac flutter" and then she played it for us. I started crying immediately. I looked over at J and his face was just totally blank. Later he shared with me that he had a flashback to Bear's ultrasound and learning that he was already gone. So for him it was hard to do. I'll get back to that later. So anyway, the baby was in there, the heart was beating at 141 and it was lovely to see the babe and hear the heart beat. I'm so thrilled that this first step of many went well.

One of the reasons J had a hard time was that yesterday was the one year anniversary (or angelversary as my lovely cousin and BFF Christina called it!!) of our finding out that Bear was gone. So we had a hard time that the ultrasound and Bear's day were all the same. We were hoping for good news so that this didn't have to be a day we grieved forever. I mean we will grieve it forever, but at least we don't have two babies to grieve right?

I see the doctor next Friday for a pap and all of those lovely cultures they do each pregnancy. I had all of the prenatal blood draws yesterday at the appointment. Next Friday I'm going to insist that they schedule us for an NT scan in week 11 and ask about the MaterniT21 blood testing. I didn't actually see the doctor at this appointment so couldn't ask those questions. We just saw the ultrasound tech and then a nurse for what they called an "interview."

I did take a picture of the ultrasound pics to post on here, but I'm having a hard time getting my phone to send them to my email. So if they ever go through I'll post them.

As for telling family and friends, I think we will probably continue to wait just a little bit. It would be nice to know that the odds of another chromosome problem are low before we announce to everyone. Maybe we'll start telling a few more people, but definitely not everyone yet. Hoping we get a healthy and happy 9 months with as little worrying as we can manage.

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