This blog was started as a way to work through the grief of losing my baby March 9, 2011. I found reading stories of other women comforting while I've been going through this and hope that I can help anyone else experiencing the same thing.

Monday, March 19, 2012

No, no, please no........

Just went to the bathroom and noticed about a quarter sized spot of brown blood on my underwear when I went to the bathroom. Please, please don't let this be the start of a miscarriage. Please. Last time it was pinkish blood and it started when I wiped. This was actually already on my panties. I usually wear a pad because of leakage from my progesterone, but today I was in a hurry and must have forgotten. I can't handle this again. I just can't. I've really been feeling like this was it. And to answer any questions, my pap was last Friday and no DTD has been done lately. So could a pap on Friday have caused this? Seems like I would have spotted that day or the next and not 4 days later. I'm not even sure I want to tell J. I did call the doctor and they said a nurse would call me either later today or early tomorrow. Any good stories out there? I'll let you guys know if the bleeding gets worse. I'm at work now and think I'm going to go home. I can't handle worrying about this here.


  1. I can only imagine how worried you are. Brown blood means old blood so maybe it's just blood from the pap smear just finally making its way out. Hopefully, the doctor brings you in and checks everything out for you, though. You don't need the stress of wondering and guessing. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

  2. Thinking of you. Ditto the "brown blood means old blood". I hope your doctor calls you back stat.

  3. I sometime watch "I Didn't Know I was Pregnant" and usually the woman continue to have what they think is a light period, so that is why they didn't know. According to the Drs on the show, they say it's not uncommon to "spot" the whole pregnancy. But I know it's scary, even if it's "normal"! Hope you have heard from the Drs! Let me know if you need me to come give you a hug!