This blog was started as a way to work through the grief of losing my baby March 9, 2011. I found reading stories of other women comforting while I've been going through this and hope that I can help anyone else experiencing the same thing.

Wednesday, June 8, 2011


Well that's no good when life gets in the way of my blogging now is it?? Work and life have both been very busy and unexpected lately.

The Memorial Holiday weekend we had really bad storms and ended up losing power for four days. We had to go spend the weekend with my in laws. It was awful (the storms, not the in laws LOL!). I was actually driving during the worst part of the storm and was honest to goodness scared for my life. I saw a tornado forming and had to dodge multiple falling trees and I ran into some power lines that were thankfully not live. Our area in north central PA was hit pretty hard for several days with confirmed tornados. Pretty crazy.

Luckily no one got hurt and we made out with minimal damage. We lost two pretty Willow trees (my favorites) in our yard and some shingles on our roof. So once the power was restored we spent the next few days trying to wrestle the fallen trees down and get rid of them.

Then after those crazy storms it seems like things have just gotten busy. I'm back to teaching Zumba for our local Curves on Monday nights, I have meetings for the class I'm taking on Wedneday nights and it seems like something else always comes up on Tuesday and Thursday.

I'm doing pretty well. I seem to have gotten some of my bubbliness back. I know that probably isn't even a word. But that's how I feel. Like some of my lost mojo has silently crept back in. I have more energy, I have been accomplishing more at work and I've been spending less time in bed watching TV. I don't think the depression is truly over, but I think it's getting better.

I am still charting and hoping for a baby. We tried last month with no success. I did the temping, charting and using opks (ovulation predictors). This month I'm doing the same thing. I got a positive OPK last night and realized that last month I never saw one that was as dark and never got a true positive last month so don't think I even ovulated. My temps were also all over the place. I posted a separate blog post from Flickr with the pic of my progression from Cycle day 8 to Cycle day 12on the OPKs.

Oh and just a random note...Blogger is seriously pissing me off. I can't comment on other people's blogs any more. It keeps redirecting me to log in and then won't actually let me post the comment. One of the BLM (baby loss mamas) that I follow got her BFP (postive pregnancy test--big fat positive) and I wanted to congratulate her. So Lauren if you happen to stop by and catch this...I'm SOOO happy for you :)!!!

1 comment:

  1. Thanks for the congrats. Hopefully, I'll be congratulating you soon ;)

    The storms sound scary. I'm sorry that they tore down your Willow trees :( it seems like every region keeps getting hit with these rough storms.

    I'm glad you're starting to get some of your mojo back lol. You're right...the depression is never over, but it does get easier to deal with.

    Yay! I'm glad you got a true positive this cycle. That's awesome! I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you to get your BFP this cycle! I hope the 2ww goes by fast for you, too(I know how slow it can be lol).

    Keep us posted! :)