I'm so short tempered and angry. I get mad at the dumbest things. The girl making my Subway sandwich gets it wrong and I fume about it for an hour. Some jerk cuts in front of me in traffic and I find myself screaming obscenities. Someone says something that bothers me and I stress about it all night. My dear husband J annoys me and I immediately start to yell.
I hate being so angry all the time. It's not me. It's not healthy. It's not right. I can't stop it though. It's weird for me that I'm angry at all kinds of things, but find that my anger doesn't necessarily center around Bear. I don't know why. I'm just angry at the universe I guess and I'm taking it out on others. Hopefully I'll still have people around that love me when the dust settles.
On a brighter note, I'm actually doing a bit better. I'm making it to work on time. In fact I was here like an hour early today. I have been getting tasks accomplished in a timely manner and I look productive. That is a good sign. I'm still angry though.